I am broken. My heart is broken.
My eyes fill with tears without notice. I cry without warning - it doesn't matter where I am or what I am doing anymore.
I smile less. I love to smile. I love smiling at people who look like they hate to smile because I hope I can transfer happiness to them. Now I am the one that's not smiling.
I am tired. I cannot sleep well. I have so many fears. I am so scared.
Levi was diagnosed last Wednesday (8.26.15) with B-cell ALL Leukemia. He is my little tornado. He is my world. He is my everything. I live for him. He grew in my belly and we are very close. We cuddle at night and talk about his day. He gives me big kisses. He still likes for me to carry him. And we pray together. And I tell him stories about my day. He and I are close. We are Mother and Son.
So, here I sit. Broken. And I know God can restore what is broken and make it into something amazing. In my heart, I know this to be true. God is love. Levi will be well again...because God said he will not leave us. He will not forsake us - He is there when we need Him. And Levi needs Him. I need Him.
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